I have to restrain myself at times in this adoption process not to get too excited about possible situations. It is so hard to do, but I try to in order that I don't set myself up for disappointment later on. However when I hear from our social worker about a situation that sounds perfect for us, it is extremely hard. I don't want to get my heart involved, yet I do. I want to be excited for the possibility of what could be, yet I don't. For if I get involved and get excited, I might end up hurt. I don't want to hurt in this adoption process, yet I know it is not without tears. So today I ask for prayers. That God would guard my heart. That He would give me peace. That He would be in control of this situation.
Be Still My Heart!
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- Vanessa
- Hi! I'm Vanessa! Wife to handsome hubby Chris. Mom to three little girls whom I adore. I'm passionate about life, adoption, photography, missions, music, singing, and reading. Often described as effervescent, I march to the beat of my own drum and I'm ok with that. Come follow along with me through the laughter and tears of learning how to parent three girls, how to deal with the challenges of adoption, and the interesting stories that life may bring our way.
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I think it would be nearly impossible to not have your heart involved from the start. I can only equate it to those early days of just thinking I might be pregnant -- my heart was in it from the start, whether it came to be or not. I will be praying for you. :)
ReplyDeleteYes Angie-that is it completely! It's like my friend earlier in the day texted me and said that she couldn't imagine what it's like to know that our world could change tomorrow. I'm sure it's a really good thing to have my heart be involved. I also know that ultimately, no matter what happens that God will heal my heart or open my heart even further.
ReplyDeleteOnce again-thank you! :)
I think Angie said it best. I will be thinking of ya'll and keeping you in my prayers. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteThank you Nikia. No update yet. We expected one by now, but plans always change, so we need to wait a bit longer.
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