I'm on a roller coaster ride and I want it to stop so that I can get off. Seriously. I am more than ready to be done.
I need prayers. Chris and I have been talking a million times this week, there have been lots of tears, and I've laid my heart out to Chris and God that I just don't know if I can do this anymore. I know I will and I won't give up, but I just need many prayers that God will sustain me in this wait.
We have heard practically nothing from our social worker since our failed adoption. On top of that, we have heard nothing from any grants either. It's like our adoption and grants have gone silent. I'm not liking silent.
Basically our adoption journey has been a roller coaster ride of emotions and I'm not sure how much I can handle anymore. Just pray.
About Me
- Vanessa
- Hi! I'm Vanessa! Wife to handsome hubby Chris. Mom to three little girls whom I adore. I'm passionate about life, adoption, photography, missions, music, singing, and reading. Often described as effervescent, I march to the beat of my own drum and I'm ok with that. Come follow along with me through the laughter and tears of learning how to parent three girls, how to deal with the challenges of adoption, and the interesting stories that life may bring our way.
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In the silence of the world you are able to hear God's soft, clear voice much better! You are continually in my prayers and know that whatever happens, it is for His Glory and for your good!
ReplyDelete"Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalm 46:10
Hey! Just looking for new blogs! NIce to meet you! Cute blog.
ReplyDeleteHope you will come visit my mommy blog!
I have some great giveaways going on too!
I really like what Mandy said and I second it. Praying for your tender heart dear one!
ReplyDeleteMandy-Absolutely perfect for me right now! Thank you!
ReplyDeleteAngie-Thank you so much! I know you are and so appreciate it! :)
2 things.
ReplyDeleteremember these are coming from an adoptive mommy.
1st: I will of course pray for you.
2nd: CALL THEM. the squeaky wheel gets the grease. My social worker would assume that we were losing interest if I didn't check in every 2 weeks. After not hearing from her in several I finally got up the guts to call and "bug" her (from my perspective) and she told me that if I didn't hear from her every couple of weeks, to call HER. Don't worry about bugging her. it's her job to help find you a baby, to help do God's will. While I STRONGLY feel that God has a child in mind for you, you signed with an agency because you wanted/needed somebody to do that work FOR YOU. (I mean, really, what are the chances of a baby just being dropped off at your door? As much as I dream about this happening, we did not get children placed with us until we became squeaky wheels!)
*hugs*
Megs-
ReplyDelete1. Thank you for praying! :)
2. You are so right! :)
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ReplyDeleteProverbs-I know you removed your comment, but I just wanted to say that I read it and so appreciate it! It's honestly not something I had thought of doing much (praying for the social workers). Your post to me really made me realize that I should do so. It also gave me hope for the future. :) Congrats on your little girl and please, stop by again. I loved your post! :)
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