Today I'm Ok

I thought you would have been here by now but you're not. Today I'm ok with that, tomorrow, I probably won't be. My emotions are like that. I just had dreamed of you celebrating with the girls on their birthday. Of course, you would have probably slept through it in my arms, but at least you would have been here. Snuggled in close, surrounded with those who loved you before you were even home. Since you haven't met us yet, let me tell you a little bit about your family.

Your dad: He is one of the hardest working men I've ever met. I'm so proud of him, yet I don't tell him enough. He goes underappreciated far too often, and I'm constantly working on that. He is extremely handsome. :) If you turn out to be a little girl, you are going to have a crush on him just as your sisters do. If you are a boy, you will respect and look up to him. Whatever you are, I look forward to seeing you rest in your daddy's arms.

Your biggest sister Zoelle: She is three now. All spirit and spunk. She has had a really hard time not being the only child anymore. She often will cry to just be held, or act out just to get a little extra attention. Meridian loves her though and asks for her first thing in the morning. Z is super smart and funny. She often makes us laugh through our frustrations. You are going to love her!

The little big sister Meridian: Mer is one today. She is pretty much the opposite of Z. Quiet and content. Sweet and calm. But, watch out because she has a bit of a temper to her and definitely is exerting her will as she gets older. Mer Mer will be an awesome big sister though and will probably shower you with kisses daily, if not hourly!

And then there is me, your mom: I've dreamed about you since I was 13. I got a Bitty Baby American Doll at that age who had dark skin and God laid it on my heart at that moment that one day, I would have a child who looked like that. I can't wait. Each day, I wake up and wonder if today will be the day.

Hope you enjoyed getting to know us a bit more. I love you little one and look forward to the day someone places you in my arms. We'll be waiting.